What do you think? I cant make a decision?? I'm confused??? i need as many questions as i can get!?

Since i was 10 i wanted to be an actress and singer but famous and i always daydream about it etc. but now im 18, and im starting to doubt if i really want to be famous, or just do what i love because being famous is really hard, getting rfamous is even harder, and i dont really think ill make it because I really have almost no experience, I still can't sing or play an instrument good enough and if i really wanted it, i would have done something to get experience like plays etc already. Im now being more realistic and trying to give up on fame and just go to college, learn music and how to sing and be an indie artist and then earn money to put my own record label and other businesses and learn new things like art, etc and not have to worry about being famous and it cons. Do you think that I would be making the right choice of just letting that dream of being famous go???? Because everyday, fame seems to me like a piece of **** now, since the media only makes people famous cus of there looks, not talent. And anyways, we dont really get to take anything from here when we die, so i rather put my treasures in heaven. Im still confused though, i dont know what i want.